people keep bringing up dan in front of me and it just causes me to well up with rage. do you not know what he did? the things he said to me? the way he treated me?
well let’s have a quick review. I had the most intense sex of my life with him, and then approximately a week later, he met me at bagel beanery, sat down, didn’t even bother to order food, told me that if he really cared about someone he would feel responsible for them and was just using me for support, left before I touched my food because he “had to go study”, and told me casually to let him know if i needed anything.
he suggested we take a sexcation. he objectified me more than i’ve ever been objectified by anyone, to the extent that i don’t ever want to be touched by a man again. This is a man I loathe and fear so deeply, who hurt me so much, that when I think he is approaching on my walk to or from school, I literally cross the street (a difficult task with all the white guys here in GR)
so you could understand why getting a glimpse of him or hearing his name are singlehandedly the most upsetting things that could happen, now that he isn’t around to break my heart directly. its a surprisingly close second, though.
so how dare you fucking bring him up? he’s dead to me. i wish everyone else would play along on that.
edit: truly, i have too many daddy issues to play this game at all. can we just? Seriously though can i just retire this shit and get a cat? I’m only ever goig to be happy alone and the quicker i accept that the better for everyon involved.